The only reason that I’m updating my blog now:
I’m feeling alone and there’s no one to hear me at all…
Besides, no one really reads what I write… Maybe you do, but I would appreciate a comment or two. After all, this is one of the other ways that I’d be communicating with anyone else, apart from trying to meet up with friends that I hardly meet.
This has been going on till now. Every night, all I do would be my usual routine of checking Facebook, then my e-mail, and Deviantart… I’ll log in to MSN, hoping that anyone would drop me a message and talk about other things besides themselves or just saying ‘hi’…
Sometimes I feel that my life’s a mess, especially right now. I haven’t been doing my homework as I should, I worry if I’m doing it at the last minute, I worry that I might not finish it. I worry about losing so much hair till the point I’m about to get an anxiety attack… And it has happened once last week where I couldn’t breathe and had to resort to popping a Xanax pill. I think my lecturers are giving us too much homework.
There are times when I feel like quitting school and start doing what I really like; baking & cooking. But again, I love the challenge of homework and assignments… but not until the point where every week is assignment due week.
I’m really bugged by school and its heavy load of work. I wish this semester would end soon then I can fly to
I can’t even remember when was the last time I had an hour’s worth of conversation with a friend on the phone. Nada.
I don’t want to fall asleep every night, thinking that I haven’t done anything fulfilling in the day… It makes me suffer from insomnia, which I have been getting for some time now.
This is a plea for help,
Erica.
1 comment:
hmm...i love talking on the phone so WHY don't you ever call meeee? *sobs* cos you don't wanna talk to me rigggght =(
yeah, i guess you're right about how people usually just drop a "hi" or talk about themselves (even i am guilty of that...). but you know, sometimes, it's also because they really wanna talk to you, but don't know how else or what to say, so they use talking abt themselves as an "excuse" to msg you? :)
cheer up ric. easier said than done. but heyy, you can look to Him for joy...and rmb, you ain't really alone here. m sure there are many ppl here who care about you and want some of your time too. sometimes we feel awful because we focus too much on the ppl we want so much to be close with...and miss out on ppl who wanna be your good friend too. hmm, wonder if m making sense...haha
anyway, hope to talk to you on the phone soon, ric! *hugs*
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