::Mom's Birthday::
I have so many regrets. Not being able to be closer to my family, not being able to talk to my brother the way I see my friends talking to theirs, not being able to tell my family "I LOVE YOU" literally... We aren't that close..
But today, God answered my prayer. I've been praying for my family to have a tighter bond, and to have better communication.
I went to church early this morn, listened to pastor's sermon.
"God's Perspective Of A Good Husband And Father"
And I learned a lot today. God speaks through parents. And although my parent's aren't saved yet (I'm praying for them to be, one day), I realized how much of a bad daughter I've been. I hardly do household chores that my parents want me to do, I complain lots (often complaining about my brother not doing anything that I have to do), asking for more allowance... Yeah the usual things... I was thinking about it on the train ride home... and my heart cried.
But God is gracious, He gave me an understanding family, one whom I could learn to express my love to more openly. I was about to tell myself to go straight home, and cry my heart out (about other things as well) when my dad called to ask if I wanted to celebrate my mom's birthday. I contemplated, but I said yes, we were hardly out, TOGETHER. I'd been a foolish child to say "no".
And I'm really glad. Although more could've been done when me and my bro were alone at the bus stop. I realized how far apart we've grown. I don't even know his favourite color! He's like a stranger to me. And he's not trying hard enough to talk to my parents, the way I do to em. Just pray for him to open his heart to my parents.
I have so many regrets. Not being able to be closer to my family, not being able to talk to my brother the way I see my friends talking to theirs, not being able to tell my family "I LOVE YOU" literally... We aren't that close..
But today, God answered my prayer. I've been praying for my family to have a tighter bond, and to have better communication.
I went to church early this morn, listened to pastor's sermon.
"God's Perspective Of A Good Husband And Father"
And I learned a lot today. God speaks through parents. And although my parent's aren't saved yet (I'm praying for them to be, one day), I realized how much of a bad daughter I've been. I hardly do household chores that my parents want me to do, I complain lots (often complaining about my brother not doing anything that I have to do), asking for more allowance... Yeah the usual things... I was thinking about it on the train ride home... and my heart cried.
But God is gracious, He gave me an understanding family, one whom I could learn to express my love to more openly. I was about to tell myself to go straight home, and cry my heart out (about other things as well) when my dad called to ask if I wanted to celebrate my mom's birthday. I contemplated, but I said yes, we were hardly out, TOGETHER. I'd been a foolish child to say "no".
And I'm really glad. Although more could've been done when me and my bro were alone at the bus stop. I realized how far apart we've grown. I don't even know his favourite color! He's like a stranger to me. And he's not trying hard enough to talk to my parents, the way I do to em. Just pray for him to open his heart to my parents.
Devote yourselves to prayer, keeping alert in it with thanksgiving.
Colossians 4:2
Colossians 4:2
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