The reason why I'm not typing this particular blog in 'awayfromtheheat' is because of the depressive state I'm in.

I'm feeling rather mellow, downcast, disappointed, sad, vunerable, weak, tired... depressed. This low moment is an extreme opposite from the joy I felt just 2 days ago. I can't possibly reveal the cause of my depression, because I feel that I have no reason to be. Every word that I type makes me feel like crying and I don't know why... I just want to hide under my covers now, and be back in my own bed in Singapore. I just want to walk alone without having to face anyone at all, not even my friends..

I don't even feel like saying 'Hi' anymore. 'Hi' is just a polite form of acknowledgement that someone exists. But what makes one truly alive? I feel dead now. Morose. Sorrowful. Dejected.

Am I really a person? Am I really human? Do I truly exist? I keep fading in and out of existence. I doubt anyone really takes notice of me. If I were to disappear from the mountain now, no one would know. People would definitely feel sad for a while, just because they realize that another human has died, and death would most probably come for them next.

I guess I really AM invisible... I'm always waiting for a reply, but none comes to me.