Spasms, Fidgeting & Restlessness
Damn that cup of coffee... I know what happens to me even when I sip the tiniest amount of caffeinated beverage. I can't stop fidgeting... And then I get worried, my heart starts to pound harder, and I can't sleep because I know that something's not done.
I skipped school today because of my damn back... My posture's been getting worse and hence the excruciating muscle spasms. Well, an extra excuse for working from home! Goody goody... At least I did get some things done.. like my character designs for 'Illustration for Designers'. And I hope to complete the entire 50++ page worth of illustrations by next week, along with the products.
And I've got other stuff to worry about... Like my exchange program to San Diego State University (SDSU). Who knew that applying for an exchange prog could be so much trouble. First the paperwork, then the subject matchings (more e-mails to lecturers), and then you get unsatisfactory replies when they say that 'subjects that you're taking there have to correspond exactly to what is offered in NTU'. OH PLEASE... what's the point of going overseas and taking the same old subjects that are offered in your university?? I need more exposure, not to be stifled. Sometimes I wonder if NTU has our best interests at heart... Lovely time of being stressed by such matters... Now I'm beginning to wonder if I can even study at SDSU next spring, not with all the paperwork and datelines that I hardly adhere to. And now it seems that I've to foot my own flight tickets to San Diego... I thought exchange programs were partially sponsored by the school. ARGHHHHH... everything's about money in this world.
Even human beings are seen as monetary goods. That's why Singapore is pruning us to become part of the capitalist society. Sometimes I wish that I could just lead a simple life somewhere in the Meditarranean region, purely supporting myself through farming for my own needs and exploring the secrets to good food. Fat fat fat hope... I feel that passion in Singapore has been arrowed towards money and nothing else.
4 comments:
That is true. Some people think that capitalism is so great, but it is actually degrading to human beings. Humans beings with feelings, hopes, dreams, aspirations are reduced to simple commodities. It is a sad system under the cloak of glamour.
hmm...there are places you can live simply, other than the meditarranean region that you dream about, you know...how bout life as a missionary / tent-maker in a place like thailand, pakistan or even...kenya? ;)
I dunno Gwyn.. It's just that I've yet to feel the calling of being a missionary or tent maker..
I just mentioned the Mediterannean because it's so full of the kind of culture that I'm looking foward to seeing and learning..
hahaha...just teasing you, ric! *lol*
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